There are a lot of people suffering with fatal diseases, physical disabilites, etc. This bothers me greatly. While I do have a LOT of physical and medical problems, mostly auto-immune and nerve disorders, my most disabling disease is mental. No I am not crazy or psychotic. That would be preferable to knowing and remembering. The memories are never far from the surface. Sometimes, that is what controls my life. I look down and see myself living in this fog. I get lost and do not know the direction I am going. I feel mentally anguished.
But today I am going to fly away. When I look down I will see the earth and clouds. I will land at a new destination. Hopefully this will keep at bay, at least temporarily, the pain of my existence.