|To believe without seeing...|
On my face book page, I use an application called "Message from God".
Here is the message:
"ON THIS DAY GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW
... that it's time you stopped hiding from life, and said yes to the adventure of being alive. Enough of the routine already. Go on, have an adventure, - do what you always wanted deep within your heart. Do what brings you alive, and the universe will open doors where there were only walls."
I know there are very many coincidences in life, but is that all they are? How can this be a coincidence when I am having an adventure, which by the way does not happen often. Here is the catch..."do what you always wanted deep within your heart". This message is not about a superficial adventure. It is about being alive and living life, about which this "blog" is NOT. "Alive but not living". That is why I started writing again. I have been trying to figure out what is in my heart for a long time. Trying to understand what exactly will "bring" me alive. But, I keep hitting the "dead ends" on the road. So, I turn around and try to start the journey again. I know there has to be a reason for my existence. My heart has been surrounded by walls for so many years. Few people have been able to penetrate them. Sadly, those that did are either dead or have left my life for one reason or another. This has made me weary on my journey. Sometimes, I feel I cannot take another step. Then I look around and see people suffering WAY more than me...People that physically cannot take "another step"...People like my Godmother and the "ALS-BEWARE" blogger. Hesitantly, my brain tells my legs to move and I listen. I am still 'alive but not living'...but the possibilities are endless. There is still hope for me. There is still a chance that I can learn to live, to FEEL joy; to FEEL love; to FEEL alive. So I ask God everyday for the strength...and when it seems that my prayer goes unanswered, all I need to do is look beyond myself. Then I see that I have been blessed. I see that suffering is a part of every one's life. It is how we deal with it that makes all the difference in the world.