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Monday, April 4, 2011
Her Way or The Highway
I cannot stop thinking about her. I am afraid for her. Is it an illness or is it something totally different. Something for which I have no words. Everyone says "tough love" is the solution. Let me tell you what "tough love" means to me. First, there are the nightmares that make you wake up crying. Let us talk about the guilt of feeling you have abandoned a part of your soul. Then there is the fear of not knowing what will happen if she would get evicted from her apartment. And then by gosh, there is the PAIN of loving someone so much and not wanting them to suffer. The futlileness of being alive without them in your life. But, that leads us to CHOICES. This is the path she has chosen. We have given and offered so many times to help. We can no longer keep up the offers. Not when she will not budge an inch. Not when the word "compromise" is not in her vocabulary. Relationships are two way streets. Not a 'one way' highway where she is the "eighteen wheeler" barrelling down the highway ready to run over and destroy the very people trying to help her. How did this happen? When did she change? Why did she change so suddenly? Is it because of all that happened to her--her past haunting her? Is it the dreaded Huntington's disease? I need answers. Please GOD, give me answers. Maybe I will not like what I hear...but it would be much better than the silence I am living in right now. The silence is deafening. The silence is cruel. Please, please I need answers. Let me know what is the best path to take for everyone concerned.
Posted by menancy at 8:30 PM