ALLS WELL THAT ENDS WELL...WHO KNOWS??

Well, the phone delivery was made yesterday evening.  I was so anxious before that I had to call my therapist for support.  She wanted to know how I felt about giving her another phone.  I told her I felt good about it, because I did not want our daughter to be without any way to contact someone if she needed help.  And besides, when we made this "agreement" with our daughter, we said we would provide a cell phone.  So there, short and to the point, was my answer.  IT IS OKAY TO GIVE HER THE PHONE.  She said, "You do it because it makes you feel better.  You do it because it gives you peace."  So how wrong can it be.  All in all, I think it went well.  I helped her learn the basic functions, because it is one of those 'new fangled gadgets'.  (Did I just make up that word 'fangled'...cannot find it in my electronic dictionary).  In fact, her first words when she saw it were, "It's one of those touch screen phones...I don't know if I can figure it out."  I ended up staying on the porch with her for probably about forty minutes.  It was a relief to see her after almost a year.  She looked okay.  She did not look happy, but I think there is a LOT for which she has to be unhappy...so that was not a surprise.

TODAY...LIFE IS GOOD!

UNTIL...I went to group.  It is very difficult to go there.  But, I think it is a way to get out of the house.  Hey, it is a way to get me into something other than my 'hanging around the house' clothes.  It forces me to move.  There...positive affirmations about the group!!   I am trying.  I should at least get an 'A' for effort...or a sticker...or a gold star...or something!!! "ANYONE, ANYONE....BUELLER, Ferris, are you there?"