Ray Lamontagne...EMPTY....Till the Sun Turns Black

WILL I ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY...

SO EMPTY...

SO WEARY...

WILL NO ONE HEAR ME...

THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND...

WHY SO MANY PEOPLE LIE...

IT'S THE HURT I HAVE THAT FUELS THE FIRE INSIDE...

WILL I ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY...

SO EMPTY...

To: ‘Meus Vicis’ You are the butterfly.

It was a beautifully written note.  I could feel your sense of not belonging.  I could hear the pain in your words caused by the change of who you are becoming.  Most of the time change is for the better, but can be very confusing and does create a sense of loss.  I have heard it said that ‘You can never go home once you have left’.  I am not sure if those are the exact words used.  But it is close enough!  Here are my thoughts on the subject. It is not so much that you cannot go home, but that ‘home’ will never feel the same.  It is a part of our transition into adulthood.  The more you find out about yourself away from home, the more ‘home’ becomes distant in your mind…yes, like the Emerald City.  However, remember you originated and have come from the Emerald City with a heart, courage, an awesome brain, and a home waiting for the butterfly to return that has emerged from its cocoon.   You are that butterfly.  This is your time for emerging.  This is your time.  Do not fall asleep in the poppy field.  Stay awake and enjoy every moment.  Yes, you might go through some pain, some feelings of loss, some moments of not belonging—but remember they are growing pains.  At this moment in time you are still tethered to your home, yet learning to fly alone.  One day, you will find your own home.  But know that through all of this change, you are never alone.  You still have a home, a place to rest.  And what a wonderful home it is. 



THE END OF THE WORLD by Skeeter Davis

Near the End

By Caprice

Alone again her heart is dying

Weeping inside her soul is crying.

Facing the reflection in the water

Shattered by what life had brought her.

Looking back on mistakes she made

Hope and happiness begin to fade.

Drifting into a black abyss

Seeing just dark and loneliness

Falling deeper the end is near

Her eyes no longer shed a tear.

All at once she sees a light

Then a voice cries out, Please fight!

A familiar presence she knows so well

What could it be?  She cannot tell.

She opens her eyes to see a face

Within the arms a warm embrace.

He speaks to her in a gentle tone

Fear not, you are no longer alone.

She asks in wonder, Are you my Savior?

Will I be forgiven of my behavior?

Smiling to this he did reply

I do not judge nor ask you “Why?”

Searching for answers she looked around

Why did you save me before I drowned?

He said to her in a whispering voice,

I could not help it, I had no choice.

For I too have been near the end

Now I come to you as a friend.

Happy Mother's Day

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...AND DO NOT FORGET TO LOOK UP!

Oh, Mother, where art thou?

My wish for all mothers:  I hope you have a safe, joy-filled day with your children.

If that is not possible, then remember to look up.  Look at the sky, the trees; feel the warmth of the sun and the breeze upon your skin.  Look beyond the clouds and imagine what lies behind them, blocking your view.  It is an amazing universe for which we have much to be thankful.

LIFE

I see life passing by, like raindrops from the sky.

I try to catch the wind; instead, it sweeps me in.

It swirls out of control, as I keep growing old.

Some days I wonder why, life won’t just let me die.

Instead I must go on, and face each day unarmed.

Why does life seem so cruel, a never-ending duel.

Pondering life’s reasons, with every passing season,

Trying to live each day, not knowing what to say,

Needing to be saved from, a hopeless urge to run.

There is no place to go, I cannot hide and so—

I face each day alone, feeling I don’t belong.

I know it’s bound to end, God only knows just when.



LIFE



Author's work copyright protected

9/24/1989

Pictures from clip art

 

"To Exist is to Change"



IT'S A ROCKY WORLD---NASA photo


No one said life would be smooth....

“…for a conscious being, to exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.”  Henri Bergson

Question:  Change, change, and more change…is this why we exist?   

Answer:  “The man who never alters his opinion is like standing water, and breeds reptiles of the mind.”  William Blake

VOILA!  Therein lies the answer…if we do not change we become stagnant; our minds become filled with algae…like the pool of water without air, without movement.  We die, maybe not physically, but spiritually and emotionally. No one says that change is easy.  But, change we must.  Try something new; jump onto another path; create a new journey. 

Why is it I can write about this so easily, yet when I try to incorporate it into my life it is almost impossible?  Yes, I am resistant to change.  But, through the years I have changed very much.  Mostly for the better, that is my hope and strictly my opinion.  Yet, it is not enough.  I always want to change more.  Now that I have found the above quotes, I finally realize why the yearning to change is always calling me.  It is human nature to change.  I knew that but here it is in black and white!  Set in ‘rock’ so to speak!  If we do not follow this yearning…who in their right mind wants ‘reptiles’ crawling around in their brain?  NOT ME!   So, I will continue to search.  I will continue to question.  I will decide what I need for my continued growth.  I will decide who is a part of my life.  If they are angry, negative people they will not be part of my circle of life.  Anger and negativity does not create.  If they are condescending and look down upon me or others…it is THEIR LOSS.  Life is too short.  Every day, I realize this more and more.  Today I had news from my Godmother who has ALS.  Her sister has Alzheimer’s and has been put into assisted living.  She is only around seventy years old.  After almost overdosing on her medication and spending six days in the hospital, they had to make the ‘hard’ decision.  It is not easy to put a loved one into a ‘home’.  I know this from experience.  The guilt it causes is extremely difficult to bear.  At least it was for me.  It was a frightening experience.  But, back to the point…LIFE IS SHORT PEOPLE.  Wake up and realize what is important.  We could be gone tomorrow and regrets could fill our minds.  We need to move before it is too late.  REACH OUT!  TOUCH SOMEONE!  You could be the reason someone smiles.  You could be the avenue to help a person out of loneliness or depression.   You, yes you.