KINDNESS

One expression of kindness can change an entire day for someone.  Be kind today.  "Pay it forward"

Crawling out of the muck

After yesterday, I do not even feel like lifting up my head.  But, what other choice have I?  Life goes on through all the pain and suffering.  As I have said before, it is how we handle it that makes all the difference in the world.  While my heart aches and heals yet another wound, I will move on.  I will survive.  With every circumstance we are given a chance to grow, to learn.  Today, I am learning once again.  Today, I will learn to hope again. 

"Hope is nature's veil for hiding truth's nakedness."~~ Alfred Bernhard Nobel

Family hurting family...

Why do people want to hurt each other?  There is no good answer.  But when your own family intentionally makes fun of you and hurts you, then thinks they have done nothing wrong...this is the worst feeling imaginable.  My sister's daughter said this about my daughter, "she is a few fries short of a happy meal"; "Looks like someone needs to take her meds, LMAO",  and did this publicly on her sister in laws face book page.  They were all making fun of her and calling her names.  They are not free from problems.  They all have their own issues.  But, do I make fun of them and humiliate them publicly.  NO!  I would never do that to anyone, much less my FAMILY. 

Okay...this made me laugh! Laughter is the best medicine, Right???

Just For Fun

A Dialog

I hate to complain, but my stove broke and now I feel . . .
Deranged? Yeah, deranged.

I hate to complain too, but my clothes dryer broke and now I'm. . .
Three sheets to the wind? Yeah, that's it.

Well, I hate to complain, but I've been watching too many cartoons and now I feel . . .
Goofy? Yeah.

I hate to complain, but my door came loose and now I feel . . .
Unhinged? That's right.

I hate to complain, but I've been making pecan pies all day and now I feel . . .
Nuts!  YEP

An idea: Why not laugh at the labels, not at the people?

Found this on the web site: "Will I Go Crazy" by Dr. Jean M. Bradt (his link can be found above under Lonlieness and Depression...It's not your fault.)

FACE BOOK

Okay...I am not sure I get it.  One of my face book friends gave up face book for Lent.  Did not even seem to me that she used it very much...This is not a criticism or a judgement. Maybe it is a good choice for her.  But, for me face book is a way to keep in touch with people I care about...people that are too busy with every day living to call or visit.  People that live too far away to visit. Or could it be these people don't really want to be in touch with me?   There goes that paranoia again...that insecurity that drives me insane...
Maybe I just don't understand the whole deal...would not be the first time I don't understand something and will not be the last.  Just another day of "living in loneliness".

My Child by Plumb

When they are young, a child steps on your toes.
When they are older, they step on your heart.

I have 28 years of wonderful memories and I feel blessed.  I hope someday we will make more memories together.
Love, MOM

To My Daughter

One day, you will realize how life is short...how it passes you by in the blink of an eye.  The truth about humans is that we never know how long we have here on this earth.  We could die at any moment.  Several years ago, I gave you a book and cd "I Hope You Dance".  I still hope with all of my heart that one day you will "dance".  I do not understand the choices you have made, but they are YOUR CHOICES.  I am still here for you, but you cannot blame me for all of your mistakes.  I will not accept that responsibility.  You are a grown woman and if you do not want to be a part of my life, there is really nothing more I can do.  I have tried everything I can think of to reach out to you.  You will not reach back.  If you ever reach out, I am here...waiting for you to return...Waiting for who you truly are to return. I do not recognize you any longer.  I hope you never have any regrets.  My heart is deeply saddened.  Deep down you must be sad too.  It is hard for me to believe that you have lost all the memories we shared together.  Yes, we had some rough times...but we also had many beautiful moments.  Many more good moments than bad are what I remember.  I love you. I always will.  All that I ask from you is for respect as your mother.  Until you can find that in your heart, nothing will ever change.  You will continue on your downward spiral and I will continue to hurt for you.  This is your choice.  I cannot choose the life you lead. 

Please hurry back.